Friday, 3 March 2017

Unfriending

In other news, I told Aishy to STFU. I've had enough of her whining and I don't seem to be helping her by being the shoulder to cry on. I feel kinda guilty cos it looks like she has no one else to talk to, but I couldn't put up with it any longer. I guess it's jut one of those things you have to do to cut out the negativity in your life.

I realised that I should be happy. I have a great family, a nice group of friends, a loving boyfriend, a well-paying job, a self-sufficient home and no real worries. I just wish my job was more fulfilling.

Maybe it's just a matter of time.

New Joinee

So I made my decision. Still not sure if it's the right one. I don't fit in here. It feels like I've joined in the second term of school and all the other kids are way ahead of me. They all have their own friends and they don't care about who I am or how I can contribute.

There's no one here to guide me. I have no idea what I'm supposed to be doing half the time. And even after the 5 day induction programme, I feel like I have a lot to learn.

Friday, 20 January 2017

To Be or Not To Be

That is the question. I'm trying to decide what to do with the rest of my life and it isn't easy. It's not meant to be I guess.

I have an offer from a school and I can see it as a turning point in my career where I choose to do something fulfilling, something more meaningful and never look back. Or I can think of all the negatives and let them hold me back.

I often wonder what I would have done if my dad were still alive and he asked me to manage his denim manufacturing business. I think I would have rebelled and not wanted do it. But right now, I'd give anything to have that as an option.

I've never been good at decisions but there's always been this gut feeling that's guided me. I'm not feeling that gut feeling today. I can't tell if it's a yes or a no,