Bucket List

30 days no coffee
Be part of a flash mob
Be an extra in TV/ Film
Dye My hair
Complete a crossword puzzle
Dine by candlelight only
Do a 24 hour fast
Email a friend I haven't heard from in a while
Find an interesting ancestor (genealogy)
Find a four leaf clover
Floss more
Fly a plane
Get lost in a great book
Give Blood
Go fishing
Go jet skiing
Go on a hot air balloon ride
Go on a no budget spending spree
Go on a spa holiday
Go on holiday by myself
Go rollerskating
Go skinny dipping
Go to a farmer's market
Go to a concert
Go to a jazz club
Go to a museum
Go to a planetarium
Go to a strip club
Go to the Opera
Go SCUBA diving
Go to the Theatre
Go zip lining
Go to a yoga class
Have a fish pedicure
Have a picnic
Have a spa day with friends
Have a sleepover with friend(s)
Holiday in a caravan
Host a dinner party
Learn to Swim
Karaoke with BFFs
Kiss in the rain
Leave my hand prints/initials in wet concrete
Fit into all my clothes
Make a time capsule
Make a new friend
Make out in a changing room
Movie night with friends
Party on a boat
Play a musical instrument
Play strip poker
Plant a tree
Learn to Drive
Run/Walk a 10k
Sing in the rain
Stay unemployed for 30 days
Stay up all night
Learn to Cook
Take a spontaneous road trip
Take a wine tasting tour
Throw a dart at a map and go where it lands
Visit a Buddhist Temple
Visit Venice
Volunteer
Walk for cancer
Watch a Sunrise
Visit Australia
Visit Canada
Write a handwritten love letter
Publish a book

Patient Life

There was chocolate cake and gold watches and a kiss.
There was old school campus, office friends and a meeting.
There was Ajit uncle, purple flowers and a ride.

Just when you think life can't get any stranger...
The wildest of dreams comes true.

Just as you thought you wouldn't remember...
The strongest of colours is blue.

Just when you think it's something to treasure...
The richest of pleasures is you.

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On my way home
With a bubbling smile on my face
I looked out of the window at the billboards and I see pain
In all the poses, in all the eyes, pain.
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The road was untarred
But it was ours

And I could see him trying to destroy it
Frustrated,
I saved it from under a lorry,
I saved it.

And then his family came, his daughters,
'I left him out for 5 minutes, just 5', she says

I ignore the call from the boys landline, thinking to myself,
Today's a mess!
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Somedays you wake up happy and somedays you don't.
Somedays make you smile and somedays just don't!

More weird dreams

Someone I haven't talked to in a year wanted to speak to me again.
I had a super charming boyfriend... mmm..
I was a guy french kissing a little girl... Ewww...but the kiss was good...hehe
He and I were at home with an old cassette singing on top of our lungs...screeching actually...haha
Leah comes home and wears my brown skirt.
Su and I buy her a new dress too.
I have a really hard Physics exam tomo, which I haven't studied a word for.
We're on our way to Delhi in a plane which looks more like a train inside.
We stop at some places which look like school.
Ramona and Joyce are there trying to fix a tent sorta thing.
We're in 8A with Shilka and everyone else, sitting right at the back.
Apparently Am and Sum are supposed to come too.
Then I remember they are in Commits and Hyderabad.
Rabbi Mani is taking class.
I'm late.
I tell her my roll number is 18.
(Even though my roll number was 28 in school)
She crosses it off the messy attendance sheet.
I wake up wondering how many people actually remember their school roll numbers.

The dream

Open your eyes was playing

We were in the JPEng class.

He was holding me and singing it into my ear. I was singing along in bits, bits wear I wasn’t breaking down.

‘This is not my funeral song anymore.’

I was trying to get back home. It was late. I was waiting for a bus at check post. He passed me without looking. Even when I called his name, he didn’t turn around. He was bald. He got into the bus and left.

I see a Reva with Aachal, Osho and someone else, probably Madhu in it. I think of asking for a lift. Before I do, I’m in the car. I apologise for being so forward. I’m ignored. They’re discussing costumes for Mary and Joseph. ‘Why would Mary wear a sari?’, I wonder.

I’m on some sort of trolley: a four wheeled device with a silver handle; a boy in front of me, ‘riding’ the thing, me at the back holding on. We tumble down rocks at a great speed. This is scary. We pass a temple and lose the trolley.

I enter a strange dark house. A little fellow is frying something. I sit on the couch. When it’s time to eat, I get up and wash my hands. On the way to the sink I step in a bowl of kheer. I immerse my hands in a bowl of oil with the statue of Lady Vllankanni in it. I break her head.

I wake up wondering what Mother Mary is doing in a house near a temple.

The next night I dream I’m on my way to college. But I’m also working. So I have to choose between my job and college. I realize I don’t have a job in MiDDAY anymore so I decide to go to college with my brother. I haven’t had a bath. I try changing in the car. I don’t want people to know I haven’t changed all weekend.

Once we reach college, I go to the loo, where, surprisingly, my brother is allowed. It’s 8.40. I decide to wash and change. First I pee. Then I put on my kurtha. But before I put on my pajamas, the washing lady comes and gets them wet. I’m furious and out of time.

There’s a shelf full of lost and found clothes. I find some of Su’s kurthas there and my blue one from Delhi. I search in vain for something to match my kurtha. Orange and blue. My original pajamas were blue. I can’t go out in jeans!

Su and Sum join me. We find someone’s old dance costume. I finally find something reasonably wearable. As I try it on, Sum tries out something else. She lifts her leg in the air and asks ‘Does this make me look fat?’ It’s impossible to tell at that angle. I put my leg in the air and imitate her. Laughter.

Finally we’re in the corridor. I ask ‘Have I been coming to college at 9 everyday last week?’ Su says ‘Yeah’ I realized I’ve worked only one day at MiDDAY and I haven’t been there since they called me for the interview. ‘So I’m not working then. I’m doing my PG.’ Su gives me a Hummph!

I wake up. It’s 2 am. Mom has packed lunch with some instructions on the ‘Don’t Forget’ whiteboard. ‘I don’t work on Saturdays’ I scribble and turn on the comp.

I was walking home in the rain today..watching the droplets falls from the eye-poke-out-able parts of my umbrella...
girls in long skirts ran on the opposite side with plastic bags on their heads
I had a Mother-Teresa-ish instinct to hand them my umbrella..i was only 3 houses away from home...they had to walk at least 1km..
Ah..they'll probably sell it anyway..
Squelch! squelch! squelch!
Comm street
Pink salwar Kameez
I saw a lady in col the other day who looked like what Mrs Broughton would have looked like when she was teaching in FAPS
I dreamt that Sangi and P wanted to attend Tana's class!! :P
I invented a new game..it reminded me of the ones Madhu and I used to play...
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I'm used to listening to two things at the same time
I saw a girl with each of her 2 millimetre nails painted
Mom dreamt that someone broke into our house
Bill Gates retired
I've been thinking...have I really been living my life to the fullest?
Have I really done what I really wanted to?
Is that possible?
Or does everyone just live according to their set of rules rolling where life takes them?
Do we really have the choice?
It does seem like some mistakes....
Destiny! Something I used to believe in...
Our choices define our destiny..or something like that
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Bye Bye Bangalore

"I'm out of town..at a friends place"
"At su's place"
"I'm in Kerela!"
For a sec..ok a day... i thought i couldn't write this post without the right pictures
I still cant write it without the pics but while i wait for the bum..

so while waiting for my opponent on the dot game..i seem to be doing a lot of waiting lately
Kerela
hmm..so fun and frolic
i miss it oh wait
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So I'm back trying hard
The girl who woke up at 6am with jewelery on strikes a chord. Maybe hindi serials are based on reality.
And today as Vaik was playing with my teddy bears (Yes, a 20 yr old who spent quality time dressing stuffed animals) reminded me of the wind up toys at his aunts place
and that particularly pink doll whose butt matched Smita's (my fat ass boss) lol!
Then the snickers..I went out in the rain to get them..crackle..big bar..tempting..
I refuse to put up this post!!!
'crazy'..played this at the beach..then 'through glass' for syndrome..then 'creep' for loner..then 'secret garden'..which would have been effective if 'darling' hadn't been 'there'..
Its also an internship song..crazy..'she reallly did drive me crazy..I'm losing my mind..girl cos I'm going craaaaaaaazy!' I sang it with a brush in my hand bathroom style..lol
mangalore? why not? one vacation not enough? crazy!
I love his grin..helmet hatao..teeth..grin back
Vaik Bike..Vek Bake..lol..chick bake..'don't say I never got u anything'..reminds me of one tree hill..all erased now..sigh..
wait for next song
ew! stop! join cranberries community..if everybody else is doing it why cant I?
fingers ache
ice
'every street'
smt i dont know
I used to know every street here
but now home feels alone
this is what i thought when i was there too
He must know every street here
I started to recognize a few slowly
There was one that used ladies to advertise everything from lottery tickets to plastic pipes!!
Nice mallu ladies in sarees and oiled hair
Bannana chips, Tapioca chips, coconut in everything and fish
Aarushi Talwar..god..I can repeat those headlines by heart now!
another kerala song..lemon tree!
Rainy monday afternoon it was...nothing ever happens
blue blue sky..
its cloudy
the monsoons are here
another deadend
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so i finally learnt how to hyperlink
here's smt
here's smt else
That mermaid looks unreal until u see it here! admit it!
Big time de ja vu!
I have 4043 songs in my media library..isn't that awesome?
ok this isn't at all about Kerela now lets divert
vaik has a great collection too!
I want his Oasis folder
so there are no new pictures out there
and vinay is still online?
ugh!
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Finally Finally Finally!!!
Here I am!!
really this time!
poem i wrote at the beach while trying to remember the lines of chasing cars:

" When all that keeps you from sinking is the sea
You think of me
When all that keeps you from thinking is the sea
You sink in me "

Akshay syndrome little bit
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wierd dreams:
1. on the bus back to bangalore: I'm in an auto with Akshay. I'm really sleepy. He gets off. I'm alone. The auto driver is taking me somewhere..i donno where..I freak! I'm too sleepy to argue with him..but I'm scared...
2. Mom is getting married..at least tiny wedding cards are being handed out
3. Someone is moving into Angie's place. Loius and Ambe are playing while I talk to the new owners. very sweet guy. We go upstairs (stairs are plastic and I find hangers with tiny baby clothes) The top floor is a dream closet..It has everything a girl would ever want..dresses beautiful dresses..so many..same colour...same pattern..."my wife is a ballet instructor" he says..it all makes sense..huge rooms ceiling to floor hangers with dresses..orange..purple velvet..white..in diff sizes..then i meet the son..fat round little guy...then the mom..dont expect an Indian somehow..very hospitable..did this house always have so much storage space? I wake up shortly..Angie has msged.."Can you make it on monday" "sure"
4. I'm telling someone about dream 3...akshay is at home with the whole cast of friends..we're all sleeping on one bed..he's restless..paces..lies down..becomes Joey Tribiani!...

My imagination I tell u! never mind..I need a boyfriend..Life is too lazy right now..next..Kerela is forever..
complete!
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...and I'm still writing
I forgot jeantoe..knuckle crunch..chicken coconut curry, the miranda I never managed to drink, the not-so-veg-chopsuey! the shauremas...or whatever those mayo dripping delicacies were called...the spicy prawn..the hairclip i could have bought here but insisted on buying from the ever-so-crowded store with Muktha and J-oops-i-forgot-her-name! :P The amt of stuff in that inch of a shop is equal to at least half a floor at forum! forever in you..forever in me..i'll remember darling...
There's more..for now...
Did I mention the girl with bright blue, worn-to-bed-jewelery had her fly open?
Complete!
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It's been a week and I'm still writing
~The floater that almost floated away
~Tag on the beach
~Tamasha-undone!
~silent biker
~ 9 hairpin curves
~Wayanad=Vynaid?
~Kannada-> Hindi-> English
~Snakes and ladders
~Gooey growing balls
~Lungis
~Shoe sizes
~I climbed in my Rocksters (should not be mistaken for rock-climbing footwear)
~these bullets look like waves :)

+ ok bye-it's like she needs to warn you everytime she hangs up. She's telling you 'I'm about to hang up all of a sudden. Brace yourself!' Shall I? I shan't!
+ Flying cockroaches
+ Cumblibuchis framed
+ I need to climb
+ Stop and Stare
+ I write neatly with a pencil (Notepaded)
+ Copyright on a name like Aashish...Sheesh!
complete!
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Ok I promise this is the very last time I add to this post (She lies! she lies!-grin-copyright shar)

The rains played 'Is your watch really rainproof?' with us...
'Aaaa' down the bends with the motor off..saving expensive fuel he says
Nature's washing machine...rinse, spin, dry...
He taught me the names of places
I mispronounced..
I guess its ok to write like this..I am the muddled mind after all...for a more chronological account of the above...click here..
my job is done...
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ok so inevitably there's more...
~This is surprising but every shop there...even the kutti ones on the border have 'Photostat' written on them instead of 'Xerox' which is actually a make of a photocopying machine...I was impressed!
~the only baby on the face of the earth I will ever hate
~the silence
~harry potter
~pinkness..the lady i said 2 words to 'thank you' and 'bus'..ok thats 3..the last one in hindi..dont think she got it..we look like 'good' girls apparently..grins...slap!
~the no of kicks still pending
~passed over pinches
~the deers i missed
~the Fabindia outfit that i looked good in but no one took pics...where are cameras when u need them!!
~wrapped up in Ajmals t-shirt...first the clicker then me..
~baths-yellow shower, towels, who's first?
~bracelet of shells
~I took Trish, Joyce and Zo with me..it feels like a part of them was with me
~Maya let the cat outta the bag..actually it makes me feel safer that he knows..guilt reduced kinda...
~Mom calls..I miss her..no..just guilt..she ran away to Kerela too..on someone else's honeymoon..sigh..and we went to meet Vaiks girl supposedly..evens it out?
~swearing at Viv in public..
~not embarrassed by...
~Skirts or Sarees?
~Subtle reminders of Nathan
~Nov rain vid doesn't play
~Cranberries
~'Have u taken a bus in Kerela?'
~ think time
~Jaggu-the only Pomeranian in the world I can possibly like
~Hutch dog? I still think that was a pug
~we went to the place where there was no where else to go
~Jiptha! that was her name
~the strong smell of coconut oil everywhere
~red water
~He loves my smile
~I love his grin
~I stayed an extra day for the grin!
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I'm come to terms with the fact that this post will never say what I want it to..
"Wild streak!"
"How's that working for you?"
"Today is fun (ref to drunk conference call that lasted an hr) ..There's still some guilt attatched to kerela tho..su told her mom we're going with shar and gang i should have done the same..never mind..too late now.."
"Well as long as you had fun."
"I did! I did! Aw it was gorgeous..I started to blog about it but never got to the bottom of that post (Ahem ahem)...there's so much that can't be said in words.."
"Sometimes the words are there, just not to be expressed to others."-this guy gets me!
"Hmm..maybe..the other night before i fell asleep i had those words in my head.. in complete witty sentences too! But then they disappeared.."
"Lol..You know what they say. If you don't remember it, it wasn't important enough."
"No! This was like its imp but its for u and no one else ..So dont remember it long enough to put it up where everyone can see.."
So there! It's not that I refuse to share a full fledged account of every memorable second! its just that I prefer to keep snapshots in my head...so get whatever u can outta this post (if you've managed to read the whole thing that is) and leave the rest to your imagination and my excellent memory...
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Unsave, Empty, Recycle, Delete!

"Dinner in this house is like a fridge cleaning process!"
Frustrated note to self

"Din't think it would be easy..expected hostility..civility instead..dreamt I was in a position of and they kidnapped me..Akshay and Nehal..They took me away..and in my head I knew I shouldn't be talking to him but he pulled me away..Someday you will find me caught beneath a landslide in the sky..they've been times i couldn't bear listening to this song..but then I was defined by its love..its power..2007 from 2nd Feb :-)"

Obviously this was written long ago..remember sitting in the kiosk typing it out..

"Deb Tarun and Sushil are my sunshine boys..Akshay's cut outta the list and ram..no! Just dint work..I'll always love them..My boys.."

The list keeps changing..dont have one right now..Its more like my girls for the time being..

"And the day gets worse..I can taste the dust that my gloss collected on my lips.."

Guess it couldn't have been that bad if I dont remember it..

"Songs..Sometimes you cant make it on your own..Little by little :) minerva!heartshaped box..smells like teenspirit..slide away..by the way"

Deb songs..back when I thought i liked him..

"What can purge my heart
Of the song and the sadness?
What can purge my heart
But the song of the sadness?
What can purge my heart
Of the sadness of the song?"

It was an African poem we were made to analyze.."A song for Billie Holiday" by Langston Hughes


"It's funny..we sitting opp each other head banging with the same intensity..Possibly at the same song.."
That was a weird day

"I so wanna na na na na na him! Shove it in his face! did u think it would hurt? It doesn't..but the fact that u wanted to hide it from me..that hurts..its a feeling i don wanna get used to.."
Same day..he had just come back from Mangalore and I thought I was on my way there
Sangi, Nehal, Sum, Su and him planned to bunk and they did. The rest of the msg is for Sum cos She tried to hide the fact that they hung out..so stupid! Like I care!

"Just cos I'm a girl doesn't mean i know everything about girls..Girls are weird! They say things they don't mean and expect ppl to understand them"
I think this is nicely put

"You don't know me,
And you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said,
You don't know me,
And you don't wear my chains, oh yeah.

She said I think I'll go to Boston.
I think I'll start a new life.
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name.
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly 'em out to Spain.
I think I'll go to Boston.
I think that I'm just tired.
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind.
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of Sunset,
I hear it's nice in the summer, some snow would be nice, oh yeah.

You don't know me,
And you don't even care, oh yeah,

Boston, where no one knows my name"

Boston-Augustana
Wanted to run away...


"I'm drowning..And i want to..I'm sinking and there's no place i'd rather be.. No one there to save me"
Drunk!

"Hmmm...love ppl..sometimes need to be the centre of attention..Don't get sarcasm..not very witty..Becoming quieter as I grow older..lovable..beautiful...creative..likes to know other ppl inside out..Sorta mind reader..can freak ppl out pretty often!"

Describing meself

"2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
'Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,
I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season'
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites. You're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe"

Breathe-Anna Nalick
Thanks Noopur

"A lot like love..Thats what we had..Smt a lot like it"
Not sure who this is about
Just love the movie

"Everything is never ok with me..why all of a sudden does it matter?"-Ally Mcbeal
My newest fav quote

"Good morning! no I'm not an early riser! Just a late setter :p"
Thats my life now

Dark dreaming

Su and Arun were singing the same song
I laughed
They stopped

We were in some Wonderla kinda place with Sudhamshu
Ramona was there
I met Joshua
Nehal and all dint have as much fun as I did
I dint like the merry go round

We were boating on a lake

Vini and Tricia and me in Abhaya's class
Held in my living room
I'm taking notes
Su and Adrien also feature
I get to put a Egyptian cap thing on Adrien's head
Su remembers that Sum is alone at home and rushes back in the rain without telling anyone

We time travel back to some kinda sports day
Held in Inner Circle
Adrien has a girl
They're cute together
I see Vini
I'm with Yentyl
Even Shilka is there

And the other night I was at a wedding with some Bollywood actor
We play a prank on someone
Then we unwrap gifts
Menon and I are listening to a Simon and Garfunkel song
And Dancing
It felt like I was floating
I spend the night at his place
He has a huge room
We share a bed
In the morning
I'm brushing my teeth
Su's earrings are near his sink
Even Osho's multi-religious ones
We make up this story
About me having a boyfriend
So that his parents wont suspect anything
He says I can wear tracks
I have to go to coll
My red kurta is there
But I need white pajamas
So we go to his moms room
I see his dad on the way
Sitting with Firangs at the dinner table
In his moms room there's this huge TV
he puts on the comedy channel
This girl is trying to answer some question
She goes aaaaaa-a-aaaa
I wake up
It's 5am
The Namaz is on in the mosque
Thats where the aaa-aaa-aaa came from
I wonder if someone was playing Scarborough Fair too.

I made a list today
In my head I made a list of all the reasons I'm unhappy
It was a long list
The last one was
It doesn't matter to anyone if I'm happy
I'm not happy cos my happiness doesn't matter to anyone
I'm alive
cos I need to be
i'm not happy
cos I don't need to be
Then I cried
And I slept
And I dreamt
I dreamt of Sports day in Anvesh
Mrs Sequiera
Ashish Bose and family
A few Christites too
Clarencians
Theobald house
And I was Captain
as usual
Akshay thought I slit my wrists
Now why would I do that?
Stupidest thing
Nehal told me
He gave me lime juice
*shrug*

Don't Make Me Hate You

"Keep smiling...never be angry", he smiled
"I can't be
You know I can't
I can't hate
I can't be angry
I can only be sad
And mad
And bad", I wink.

He laughs, "You shouldn't be bad"
“Why not?"
"And it’s good that you can't hate"
"No it's not!"

Suppose you do something really bad someday
Something unforgivable
Would you want me to hate you?
Would you expect me to leave you?
Would you cling to me and promise never to err again?
"I would need friends to be at my side that time
I won't let such a situation arise"
"I know baby
But suppose I can't
Suppose i can't find the strength to be near you at that time?
Would you hate me for deserting you?
You better not make me hate you
Please don't ever.

'Cos I can’t trust myself to last forever
Don’t make me choose again
Don’t make me make the same mistake
Don’t give me a chance
To hate you."

"What are you trying to say?"
"I donno
I'm just saying
I never want to repeat mistakes"
"I won't give u a chance to hate me even 0.00000000000000000001%"
"What mistakes...Akshay’s?"
"Donno if I'll ever forgive myself for leaving him"

I dreamt about him yesterday
I dreamt that it was raining
And I was near Kid’s Kemp
But I couldn't go inside
Cos he was there with his girl
And I could see them buying Baskin Robins ice cream
And I was drenched in the rain
But I was too scared to go in.

Then they come out
And I run
Needed to escape
But I'm too late
And I slip and fall
And he laughs at me
Really mocks me
And comments on how stupid I am

Then I get mad
And I scream
But I can't scream at him
I can't
I know him too well
To hate him
So I...
"Quite a nightmare!"
It gets worse
I scream at his girlfriend
And I say 'YOU DON'T CARE!!
Just go away!'
And she seems hurt
And she says
'I care. I do care'
It’s really sad
That I have to give her up
With him, I have to give up
Life as I knew it.

Sometimes I’m thankful I chose to
Ignore the rudeness,
Slide over the sly remarks...
I can tell what he's thinking by looking at him
That eye conversation may be silenced in a while.

Don't let that happen with you
I want to know you inside out
Every inch of you is intriguing
And I can’t stop myself
Never let me find anything
I could possibly hate
Cos I'll be too in love with you
To stop then.

If you're hiding something
Stop now
Stop letting me in
Cos one day
I'll find out
And I'll be hurt.

Don't let me hate you
Don't give my elastic heart
A chance to break
Don't make it hate
Don't let it make the same mistake.