AHA Moments

23 Sept 11
I want to feel more me!
I don't like work me
I don't smile as much
and I want Oreos now.

3 Aug 11

I've never had stability and I don't care much for it.

25 July 11

I'm not sure

i dont have that comforting determination feeling at the pit of my stomach

I'm just not sure

and it has a lot to do with anxiety

21 July 11
I'm still the same person
It won't change it won't make me better
It wont relax me
I'm still lonely and needy and clingy
i still cry
i still type like a madman

6 months

I'm going to work towards it.

i have a goal now.

:)

12 July 11

Love is strange

love lingers

it's that tingly feeling at the pit of your stomach

it's the heartbreak at the end of a phonecall

Farewell Rakhee

Your grinning face, your working pace

Your hunger for food and knowledge

Your friendly wink, the way you think,

And all your handsome crushes

These are the things we’ll miss the most

About the girl from Trivandum coast!

  

All the best, Rakhee!

Thanks for everything!

Knowledge Management Team

Enchanting-Travels

Wild Things

I could change the widlest thing that didn't want saving

They might come back to you

Wild things sometimes do

Sharu Bday

Pencils

Jotted

Land

Shrinking

Etching

Sketched

Doing

No matter how 'ADULT' you get, you're still gonna be immortally beautiful, exceedingly intelligent, cynically witty, contagiously amusing and altogether way too much fun to be around. I LOVE YEW!!! *sloppy kisses and bear hugs*

 23 May 11

Who am I kidding

This isnt mixed feelings

Im unhappy

I cant be entirely happy

I lie when I say I'm thrilled

Dylan

I’ve been listening to Dylan music since….before I was born! My dad was a huge fan, so much so that ‘Forever Young’ became his epitaph. I remember being asked to copy out the song onto handmade paper as a child. The calligraphy version was pinned up in my room for years. Growing up, I remember listening to ‘Blowing in the Wind’, ‘Tamborine Man’ and particularly ‘It Ain’t Me Babe’ from old, worn-out cassettes. In college, when asked to read out my favourite piece of literature, I chose to take the treasured Dylan lyrics book out of the house and into the classroom. Even though Dylan has been recognized as civil rights activist, to me, he’ll always be the great lyricist whose music is absolutely timeless…Happy Birthday Dylan!

12 May 11

When they said ‘Save it for a rainy day!’, they meant today 

I thank the little girl who made me smile and make funny faces at her

I thank the red Volvo that splashed a whole puddle on me

5 May 11

They plastered blue glycerine over the windows.

The purple flowers look purposefully blue.

18 Apr 11

Summertime

and the living is easy

TMI

'Balance whoosh! :( loved the chat. :) whatever you decide I'm here-to talk about the gory details or the mundane ones! =D just put up the bat sign, bat girl (me) will be there in a bit! =P'- AWme, 24.08.2010, 12:18am.
Our first gory details conversation took the life outta our phones!!

Gory Details:
'Baby think u've felt all the parts of me I can comfortably let u...' To TanTan, 02.05.2010, 2:59pm

'I just want to lie in ur arms n do nothing at all...' To TanTan, 02.05.2010, 2:56pm
'Ur lips are amazing too..n next time i'm gonna rip ur shirt open! ;)' To TanTan, 02.05.2010, 2:49pm
 'Noone's gone wild over my body before..it's really amazing actually.' To TanTan, 02.05.2010, 2:48pm

I have to admit the one reason I liked him was cos he liked me for the way I looked. Never happened before.
To my knowledge.

'I like u. I'm attracted to u and I know this can't go very far cos we live very different lives...so it's ok with me...I'm upset now...but i'll make my peace with it..thanks for being such a sweetheart..I like the way u care..it makes me feel special :)' To TanTan, 11.04.2010, 2:18am

'Surprising that we r messaging big time.'  TanTan, 27.03.2010, 12:32pm

'Big time' is not the word! 4000+ msgs in total. Just 6 months

'Thanks for being honest and telling me everything. Trust is what matters in every relationship Ur amazing' TanTan, 28.03.2010, 1:11am

That's one thing. We stayed honest.

'Trust Ur voice is amazing. It's loud and clear. Impresed' TanTan, 27.03.2010, 12:17pm
 That's why he fell for me. He says.

'Hey u seem to be tensed. Don't worry every thing is gonna be ok. Tomorrow is Ur first day have fun. All the best I am sure u will do well and grow faster.' TanTan, 28.03.2010, 10:15pm

That was an awfully never ending moment in time.I told my boss I was leaving. He called him into the little room, suffocatingly little. I can remember being unsure. He wasn't. He knew this was good for me. Supportive. Even today.

'Ur hot and sexy anyways. After all Ur my gal should be that way. Wat say sugar?' TanTan, 08.04.2010, 12:14am

Day of the first kiss :) I still quiver when I remember it.

'I donno babe..I really really like u...but..yeah...it's gonna be tough..let's just take it one day at a time...n see how it goes...' TanTan, 03.05.2010, 2:14pm

I can fearlessly say it went well. Now I can say it wasn't tough. It didn't involve tears and I liked it.

'I'm lying on the bed without a shirt on...they are missing u ;)'  To TanTan, 02.05.2010, 3:40pm

I like his word for them.
Now I do.

'Try not to think too much babe! U've been very honest from the start so I don think there's Much chance of me getting hurt...let's keep it simple...what say?' To TanTan, 03.05.2010, 2:20pm

Connect the dots.

'See that's what i'm saying...i always stop u when I'm not fine with smt...so it's cool' To TanTan, 02.05.2010, 3:06pm

'I don't wanna hurt u any cost. If u look at life realistically its gonna be real tough. I keep thinking about it.' TanTan, 03.05.2010, 2:17pm

Her Morning Elegance - Oren Lavie

Sun been down for days
A pretty flower in a vase
A slipper by the fireplace
A cello lying in its case

Soon she's down the stairs
Her morning elegance she wears
The sound of water makes her dream
Awoken by a cloud of steam
She pours a daydream in a cup
A spoon of sugar sweetens up

And She fights for her life
As she puts on her coat
And she fights for her life on the train
She looks at the rain
As it pours
And she fights for her life
As she goes in a store
With a thought she has caught
By a thread
She pays for the bread
And She goes...
Nobody knows

Sun been down for days
A winter melody she plays
The thunder makes her contemplate
She hears a noise behind the gate
Perhaps a letter with a dove
Perhaps a stranger she could love

And She fights for her life
As she puts on her coat
And she fights for her life on the train
She looks at the rain
As it pours
And she fights for her life
As she goes in a store
With a thought she has caught
By a thread
She pays for the bread
And She goes...
Nobody knows

And She fights for her life
As she puts on her coat
And she fights for her life on the train
She looks at the rain
As it pours
And she fights for her life
Where people are pleasently strange
And counting the change
And She goes...
Nobody knows

Ghosts - Laura Marling

Do as done and there is nothing left to be
Turned out Id been following him and he'd been following me
Do as done after it was over
We were just two lovers crying on each others shoulder

Lover, please do not
Fall to your knees
Its not
Like I believe in
Everlasting love

Lover, please do not
Fall to your knees
Its not
Like I believe in
Everlasting love 

Dog Days are Over - Florence and the Machine

Happiness hit her like a train on a track
Coming towards her stuck still no turning back
She hid around corners and she hid under beds
She killed it with kisses and from it she fled
With every bubble she sank with her drink
And washed it away down the kitchen sink

The dog days are over
The dog days are done
The horses are coming
So you better run

Run fast for your mother, run fast for your father
Run for your children, for your sisters and brothers
Leave all your love and your longing behind
You cant carry it with you if you want to survive

The dog days are over
The dog days are done
Can you hear the horses?
'Cause here they come

And I never wanted anything from you
Except everything you had and what was left after that too, oh
Happiness hit her like a bullet in the back
Struck from a great height by someone who should know better than that

The dog days are over
The dog days are done
Can you hear the horses?
'Cause here they come

Run fast for your mother, run fast for your father
Run for your children, for your sisters and brothers
Leave all your loving, your longing behind
You can't carry it with you if you want to survive

The dog days are over
The dog days are done
Can you hear the horses?
'Cause here they come

The dog days are over
The dog days are done
The horses are coming
So you better run

The dog days are over
The dog days are done
The horses are coming
So you better run

Time Capsuled

Balance Khali..btw **** and I are 'friends with benefits' now..we talked bout it after snogging session..christmas party night..we realised it's all physical only and we can't tell anyone so it's random hooking up whenever sort of a thing..funny part is it doesn't interfere with us being friends cos neither of us have feelings for each other..good right?

-I've had my share of flings. Wipe that shocked expression off your face already! I've been kissed by a sloppy puppy, an over confident ass and a senior manager.

I like it when you say 'Oh Baby!', it makes me want to tease you more.

-I still can't delete these...

Watching one of my fav movies..Shall We Dance?

-Just added that on FB.

Missing you all over again! call if you can...

-Forwarded.

Fuck! I could write such a sexy romance novel right now :)

-On the way to Goa..we were sexting...ok...I was sexting :P

You move your fingers down to my shoulders just where my curls end and scrunch them up in time with a large hard kiss and you moan and I moan... 

-This was hardly a week after we met..sigh...

Miss you tons! what you doing? Cough better?

-He had a fever when he was here an curled up in bed with him and it was like sleeping with a giant hot water bottle...

I'm at my ancestral house in old Goa. It's so beautiful my camera is going mad!! 

-23rd Jan 2011. 11:56am

Enchanting 3ee

I wish I could tell you I'm playing Angry Birds and it's the only thing on my mind.
I'm not in the mood for small talk
I'll eat all the pasta myself if I have to
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Was on my way home
With a bubbling smile on my face
I looked out of the window at the billboards and I saw pain
In all the poses, in all the eyes, the same pained expression.
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The road was untarred
But it was ours
And i could see him trying to destroy it
Frustrated,
I saved the laptop from being crushed by a lorry
And then his family came, his daughters
'I left him out for 5 minutes, just 5', she says
I ignore the call from the boys landline, thinking to myself, Today's a mess!
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Somedays you wake up happy and somedays you don't.
Somedays make you smile and somedays you just don't!
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Mac

This keyboard has the keys

I'm not even writing 

I'm floating over the keys

It's almost as if I'm doing this randomly cos I want to block out what's going on

While I type this out there are people laughing, eating, breaking.

Flirting, faking, nothing.