Birthday High!

priyanka: haffy haffy burday

2:07 AM im 2 hours late

me: wait a sec

priyanka: but better late than ever!!

me: parll be right back

2 hours late for what??

priyanka: erm

2:08 AM to wish you/her

me: oh yeah sorry me slow

2:09 AM its ok at least you remembered

clap clap clap

2:10 AM priyanka: lol

who is this??

me: bro

2:11 AM "clap clap clap" was because par said so

priyanka: where is she??

2:13 AM me: she says home ...i think shes high

priyanka: hahahahahahaha...

me: ok she says shes not high

which means she definately is

priyanka: ok that says it all

shes high!!

2:14 AM me: lol

2:15 AM i think we are going to take her to the terrace to get her higher...

priyanka: lol...

you are her younger brother right!!?? and YOU got her high

2:16 AM i need to have a lil chat with her

once shes sober

me: hi

its me

i am ok!

im NOT high

these boys donno anything

2:17 AM priyanka: lol.. did you drink anythin??

me: yes

apple vodka

3 straight shots

2:18 AM little slow typing

and my friends rang and played a song for me on the phone

thts what the "clap clap clap" was about

i need to write on my blog

2:19 AM priyanka: lol...

8 minutes

2:27 AM priyanka: ok sweetheart!!

lol

enjoi yourself..

i better be off

me: I WILL

priyanka: i ll catch you later

have a wonderful year bebe

mwah!!

me: k

priyanka: gn

me: night

2:28 AM sleepy sleppy
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2:28 AM me: y are u online munch?

2:43 AM Sharanya: y are u?

me: i wanxa

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Sharanya: me too1

me: xdflhxd

lol

Sharanya: oopur ditched and is going to sleep

me: hahgahahahahahaha

2:44 AM sowie

bro o the loose

Sharanya: huh?

me: nm

Sharanya: if yer drunk lassie

go to sleep

2:45 AM me: im not immature ok

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2:46 AM especially with 33% off!!!!!!!!!1

extra sorry

eva lays bettle legs

what her fuck

2:47 AM some right hand rule

with moon and mule

come stumpp, someappa and shuele

ha ha ha tho

thooo

2:48 AM im in the loo

tying my shoe

Sharanya: \/\/

me: with my cast and crewe

Sharanya: the lot of you???

me: i told the crow shooo, shooo, shoo

we are making poems

Sharanya: thats a really strange thing to do

2:49 AM donks

im rhyming along

:P

hahaha

i outpoem anybody

me: and we are the remedy

to your comedy

in this raphsody

2:50 AM reply kodi

Sharanya: oh really?

me: just about... nearly

Sharanya: ur livin in a fantasy

2:51 AM i can see

that i am totally right, in all honesty

me: but you arnt better than me

2:52 AM Sharanya: again with the fantasy

me: because u see

Sharanya: get out of it already!

you'll never be

better than me

me: come on go steady

Sharanya: coz i rock you see

why? can't keep up with me?

2:53 AM me: no we can actually

Sharanya: told you i was the queen of poetry

me: your kidding me

Sharanya: nope you cant rreally!

even when there's two of you an one of me

:D

me: but seriously

Sharanya: i kid you not i really do rock

me: there is just one of me

2:54 AM then madame your in for a schok

cause we do more than mere talk

we rhyme in time

2:55 AM are you offline?

Unsave, Empty, Recycle, Delete!

"Dinner in this house is like a fridge cleaning process!"
Frustrated note to self

"Din't think it would be easy..expected hostility..civility instead..dreamt I was in a position of and they kidnapped me..Akshay and Nehal..They took me away..and in my head I knew I shouldn't be talking to him but he pulled me away..Someday you will find me caught beneath a landslide in the sky..they've been times i couldn't bear listening to this song..but then I was defined by its love..its power..2007 from 2nd Feb :-)"

Obviously this was written long ago..remember sitting in the kiosk typing it out..

"Deb Tarun and Sushil are my sunshine boys..Akshay's cut outta the list and ram..no! Just dint work..I'll always love them..My boys.."

The list keeps changing..dont have one right now..Its more like my girls for the time being..

"And the day gets worse..I can taste the dust that my gloss collected on my lips.."

Guess it couldn't have been that bad if I dont remember it..

"Songs..Sometimes you cant make it on your own..Little by little :) minerva!heartshaped box..smells like teenspirit..slide away..by the way"

Deb songs..back when I thought i liked him..

"What can purge my heart
Of the song and the sadness?
What can purge my heart
But the song of the sadness?
What can purge my heart
Of the sadness of the song?"

It was an African poem we were made to analyze.."A song for Billie Holiday" by Langston Hughes


"It's funny..we sitting opp each other head banging with the same intensity..Possibly at the same song.."
That was a weird day

"I so wanna na na na na na him! Shove it in his face! did u think it would hurt? It doesn't..but the fact that u wanted to hide it from me..that hurts..its a feeling i don wanna get used to.."
Same day..he had just come back from Mangalore and I thought I was on my way there
Sangi, Nehal, Sum, Su and him planned to bunk and they did. The rest of the msg is for Sum cos She tried to hide the fact that they hung out..so stupid! Like I care!

"Just cos I'm a girl doesn't mean i know everything about girls..Girls are weird! They say things they don't mean and expect ppl to understand them"
I think this is nicely put

"You don't know me,
And you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said,
You don't know me,
And you don't wear my chains, oh yeah.

She said I think I'll go to Boston.
I think I'll start a new life.
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name.
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly 'em out to Spain.
I think I'll go to Boston.
I think that I'm just tired.
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind.
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of Sunset,
I hear it's nice in the summer, some snow would be nice, oh yeah.

You don't know me,
And you don't even care, oh yeah,

Boston, where no one knows my name"

Boston-Augustana
Wanted to run away...


"I'm drowning..And i want to..I'm sinking and there's no place i'd rather be.. No one there to save me"
Drunk!

"Hmmm...love ppl..sometimes need to be the centre of attention..Don't get sarcasm..not very witty..Becoming quieter as I grow older..lovable..beautiful...creative..likes to know other ppl inside out..Sorta mind reader..can freak ppl out pretty often!"

Describing meself

"2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
'Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,
I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season'
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites. You're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe"

Breathe-Anna Nalick
Thanks Noopur

"A lot like love..Thats what we had..Smt a lot like it"
Not sure who this is about
Just love the movie

"Everything is never ok with me..why all of a sudden does it matter?"-Ally Mcbeal
My newest fav quote

"Good morning! no I'm not an early riser! Just a late setter :p"
Thats my life now

Weekend Wagueness

Random bits of saturday and sunday-The Birthday Weekend

So I made a birthday song:

She'll buy me something nice she says

Be careful of the price she says

Something to match that skirt she sayd

The one thats straight not curved she says

We'll take you some place nice they say

Be careful of the price they say

To celebrate your age they say

With chocolate cream and cake they say

Too old for balloons and dolls I say

I like it when people call I say

At twelve there's a long line I say

Adorable friends of mine I say

I'll treat them some place nice I say

Never mind the price I say

All my love for pearls I say

Can't match what I feel for my girls I say


One of ma gals said in reply:

Good morning I say
Lovely morning I say
Something nice indeed I say
V'l buy 4 u so u may
Have a wonderful day
Cuz u were born 20 years ago 2day!
Oh..N I'm going back ta sleep I say!

This is possibly the same 'she' in line 1 of my poem
Tho promise in poem 2 is carried over
Maybe something from Swiss she says

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And on Sunday we went to the lake
This involves 3 parts
The Going
The eating
The coming
Each takes around three hrs
A little water is involved in the middle

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Caught in a web of immaturity

Though 20 takes away the insecurity

I still believe in making a mess

In denial of my NonTeenageNess


Vini gave me the first line I just came up with the rest after dunking my biscuit in some tea

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This weekend includes Monday.
So I'm 20 now
hmmm
It's not worth all the fuss really
I got nice gifts tho
And there are ppl who threaten to kill me if I put up pictures
So just the cake will do


Death by Chocolate
Sigh!
It should have lasted forever.

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Dark dreaming

Su and Arun were singing the same song
I laughed
They stopped

We were in some Wonderla kinda place with Sudhamshu
Ramona was there
I met Joshua
Nehal and all dint have as much fun as I did
I dint like the merry go round

We were boating on a lake

Vini and Tricia and me in Abhaya's class
Held in my living room
I'm taking notes
Su and Adrien also feature
I get to put a Egyptian cap thing on Adrien's head
Su remembers that Sum is alone at home and rushes back in the rain without telling anyone

We time travel back to some kinda sports day
Held in Inner Circle
Adrien has a girl
They're cute together
I see Vini
I'm with Yentyl
Even Shilka is there

And the other night I was at a wedding with some Bollywood actor
We play a prank on someone
Then we unwrap gifts
Menon and I are listening to a Simon and Garfunkel song
And Dancing
It felt like I was floating
I spend the night at his place
He has a huge room
We share a bed
In the morning
I'm brushing my teeth
Su's earrings are near his sink
Even Osho's multi-religious ones
We make up this story
About me having a boyfriend
So that his parents wont suspect anything
He says I can wear tracks
I have to go to coll
My red kurta is there
But I need white pajamas
So we go to his moms room
I see his dad on the way
Sitting with Firangs at the dinner table
In his moms room there's this huge TV
he puts on the comedy channel
This girl is trying to answer some question
She goes aaaaaa-a-aaaa
I wake up
It's 5am
The Namaz is on in the mosque
Thats where the aaa-aaa-aaa came from
I wonder if someone was playing Scarborough Fair too.

I made a list today
In my head I made a list of all the reasons I'm unhappy
It was a long list
The last one was
It doesn't matter to anyone if I'm happy
I'm not happy cos my happiness doesn't matter to anyone
I'm alive
cos I need to be
i'm not happy
cos I don't need to be
Then I cried
And I slept
And I dreamt
I dreamt of Sports day in Anvesh
Mrs Sequiera
Ashish Bose and family
A few Christites too
Clarencians
Theobald house
And I was Captain
as usual
Akshay thought I slit my wrists
Now why would I do that?
Stupidest thing
Nehal told me
He gave me lime juice
*shrug*